Trusting the Reiki

Just for today, I will not worry.
Just for today, I will not anger.
Just for today, I will do my work honestly.
Just for today, I will be grateful for my blessings.

Just for today, I will be kind to every living thing.

Subtle practices take a great deal amount of trust. They are not typical exercises where the body sweats to indicate that you have been working. In fact, you might be resting when you practice.

Subtle practices are not meant to be cures and yet noticeable benefits happen by regularly engaging in them. It took a long time for me to trust in the power of something so subtle. It took me even longer to trust in offering that power to someone other than myself .

I am an overanalytical thinker and much of my daily work in research is reliant on the scientific method. However, working in the clinical community, I was surprised to hear “reiki” being used and even studied in hospitals. Although reiki seemed to be in legitimate spaces, the deeper I dove into the practice, the more I was unsure. It is natural to question things when learning something new like this. It was almost like the wilder my experiences with reiki became and the more I was venturing into the unknown, the more my overanalytical mind was unconvinced.

Reiki is a big part of my life and I still feel like there is so much more to know. At one point there was a part of me that didn’t fully trust the practice even though I know reiki had supported me and my students.  There was also a part of me that knew my experiences with reiki were true.

Last year I signed up a 7-month training to expand my reiki experience and work with my mentors. During a private reiki session with my mentor Marcia Miller (over Zoom no less!), I am positive I reached a state of euphoria and bliss. This state is when the layers of duality shed and paradoxes exist in the same time and space. It is the feeling of tasting infinity. I was receiving reiki and felt some tension on the physical level while my pelvis felt like a clear bowl growing wider and wider. This bowl felt like the place where I hold everyone’s residue and also my own. I dropped into this unitive state where it felt like particles of me were spread all through out the universe like sparkles. I told my mentor what was happening as it was happening and said I felt “a little nuts” describing it. When we decompressed after the session, she said she related to what I was feeling. She knew that a part of me was unsure and another part of me was full of trust.

I have had big expansive experiences like this with reiki before. Was I going to deny myself of those experiences because I wanted to overthink them? Or was I going to trust the part of me that knew they were true? In due course, I have come to a place of trust. I don’t know that I need a full explanation of reiki to know it’s spiritual influence in my life.